Lyrics:

If I walk too far and I get lost with such a lack of faith
The sky has no remorse and if someone up there can see -
Would you be kind enough to guide me out of this?

So I fear the night.
So I purged the night.
Two fingers deep and I purged tonight.

I'm waking blind. I'm not afraid?
Without my boundaries I can't find peace.
I fear the day, but can't fear death. I'm not a man if I can't fight myself.
I needed hope, but it won't come and in my saviours I found nothing.

I'm finding that the deeper I go
I find a solace in the way I lose myself.
The urge is like a pulsing heart
And I know if I stop I won't forgive myself
So I made this my only cause -
As if the thought of love was fucking my own throat.

If you believe in nothing, the thought of dying young is such a welcome option.

I'm waking blind. I'm not afraid?
Without my boundaries I can't find peace.
I needed fear, but it won't come and in my saviours I found?

My frail mind is a constant threat.
The easily led. The easily challenged.
My mental health is a female disease?
Am I less of a man if I suffer openly?
The backs of my eyes are bloodshot and sore
The bags that have formed tell all who should question
You're watching my frame as I collapse and burn
If I don't wake up tomorrow?

I wanted to burn.
Am I less of a man if I suffer?
(openly?)

It bores at my skin like a still lit cigar, and the absence of faith is a bruise on the lungs.Two years of denial and a life on the gorge -
to submit to the truth and succumb to my failures.
The ones that I loved were but smoke from the fires, and I treated my body as a foreign design. To all I hold dear I leave you these words - the strongest of shells surround the weakest cores. I spoke to God and my patience is spent, and if the choice is to swim I will drown in the current.

I fear my mind and welcome the night

I will die young.